Since the day of my father's leaving, i seem like became the clown to my mother. I was acting nothing to face my mother. I have to keep smile on face everyday. Even i was in problem, i am also need to act normal and with good temper to reply all of her question and even i need to eat more which to show my support to her and to her effort of making dinner. No matter how busy i am, i must go home as earlier as i can which needs to reach home before 7.30pm to calm my mother and send her out. Most of time you will say to me that she's alright to walk out. But i can't make myself to out of worries. I had lost my father. I don't want to lost my mother.

But, are all i do correct? Got side-effect which would comes later on? Is this good to me? I feel very tired. My worrying make me unable to have good sleep every night.